I decided for the rest of this month to name my blogs with four letter titles since the other two blogs for this month have been four letter words. I haven't had a chance to update as much as I would like since my life has become a bit busy in the past few weeks. I am not complaining though. I like keeping busy especially since it is in the form of my new job. Which is what this blog is going to mainly be about.

Work has went well so far. It has been a hard adjustment getting back into working shape though. I am sore and tired as hell most nights with a lot of problems with my feet and legs hurting. It is ok though. I will get use to it. You figure I went about 7 years without working so my body is probably telling me dude what the hell are you doing to me at the moment. I have only been working mainly 7 hour shifts. Usually around the 4 hour mark is when I start hurting. I am thankful for having that tub that we have though. It helps out quite a bit.

The actual work. It is stuff that I am use to doing. The store is bigger then Publix and of course with any new store you have to get use to the way they do things and how it is different then what you are use to. Knowing where things are in the store takes awhile to learn to. I am getting there but since it is a big store it will take awhile. The frozen food and dairy sections are bigger then what I am use to at Publix. I always hated facing dairy at Publix but this dairy section, oh my god takes forever to face. Then again I probably try to make it look too perfect. I've been mainly over in grocery but they have me running around doing a lot of things. Usually stocking in grocery, wearing the headset and taking calls for grocery, I've worked in frozen and dairy, and on occasion I get called up to bag. Last Saturday I pretty much spent my entire day bagging. I don't actually mind bagging all too much. So I feel like I am back at Sentry cause this is what I was doing there but at Sentry I was also working in produce part of the time. Of course with stocking there is a lot of lifting and pulling hence why I am sore.

The people. So far I like the people I have encountered. The managers seem pretty decent so far. My grocery manager Tim is pretty cool. I've always gotten along with any grocery managers I have had though so I am not surprised. Well with the exception of the last assistant grocery manager I had at Publix. Think his name was Derek. I did not like him. In fact before I left Florida I had went into Publix and since I was like leaving soon he wanted to shake my hand and I refused. He said "it is going to be like that?" and I said "yeah I don't like you". Normally I am not that direct with someone. If I don't like someone I just usually don't talk to them or associate with them. I stay away from them. I don't know why I decided to tell Derek I did not like him but I am getting off track now with talking about that. All the managers seem cool though. They seem to say thank you a lot for doing some of the things you do. I am not really use to that. I have gotten that before from some of my previous managers but it seems to be on a constant basis so far at this job. I like that. I like hearing I am doing a good job. I think it tends to make someone motivated to continue to work to the best of their abilities.

Not everything is peachy though. I still have to deal with customers. I won't get into detail about it but anyone who has worked in retail before know that dealing with customers can and will get annoying from time to time. So it is the typical bullshit everyone goes through. I can do without the work uniform too. Having to wear a white long sleeve shirt and a tie while stocking kinda sucks. Long sleeve shirts during the summer is retarded. I get that they want us to look professional but it doesn't mean that I have to like it. Then I had the incident with the girl in floral department yesterday. Anytime I have to fill something in the lobby I drag my pallete of crap through the floral department. Yes it is a tight space to go through but it is also the most direct easiest path to get to my destination. I figure as long as I don't go through there like it is a destruction derby that it should be no big deal and it hasn't been, that is until yesterday. So I was moving stuff through there and on the third time that I had gone through there I bumped a display of flowers. I did not knock anything over. It kinda just got bumped a bit. Well the chick gave me the look of death. I said I was sorry. A few minutes later she comes over by me and proceeds to give me a lecture about dragging palletes through floral and how I am not suppose to do it and how I can get in trouble and whatnot. She took longer explaining that I should not drag stuff through there then it did to fix what I had bumped. All she had to do was say hey next time please don't drag a pallete through floral cause you really are not suppose to do it. That is all I really needed. I didn't need an explanation about it. I didn't need a lecture. Just a please do not do it again would of been good enough. Anyways I figure if these are my major gripes about the job so far then all is well. Oh yeah and I hate wearing the headset. It gets in my way all the time.

It feels good to be a part of the working world again making some money. This past week I worked about 34 hours. My longest work week in almost 7 years. Course I have off today and the next 2 days but I can't complain. I am working again. That is the most important thing. It is also the beginning of many great things to come for me.



I am not entirely sure why but I have been walking around saying the word rawr. I wake up in the morning and I say rawr. I greet my cats by saying rawr. I go into the spare room to either play guitar or hop on xbox to watch netflix or something and I say rawr. I just randomly sit here and say rawr. I go in the bathroom and say rawr. I look in the mirror and say rawr. I greet people online by saying rawr. I don't know what this obsession is with saying the word rawr. There is no apparent reason why I keep saying it. It is just one of those random Nick things I suppose.

So I may as well start with the big news. I saved 15% by switching to Geico. Ok not really. I got a job. It was the one I talked about in my last blog before my zombie story. Face to face interview went fine. They did a background check and that went fine. Thank God they didn't find out about the face eating incident that happened while I was in Florida. Oh wait, that wasn't me. I officially start on Wednesday. For the moment this is only a part time job. That is ok. I needed to just get something. I will be working in mainly frozen and dairy. That is exactly what I wanted.

It has been a rather long time since I worked. To be exact it has been almost 7 years. I am not going to sit here and talk about why it has been so long as I don't really want to dwell on it and drag other crap up. I am just really excited to get back out there in the working world. Plus it will be nice to meet new people and possibly make some new friends. Who knows maybe I will meet my future wife working there! Yeah ok I totally am not even thinking about that at the moment.

In the past few months I have been saying in my blogs how things are going to change for me and how I may surprise people. People have a hard time taking me seriously. I totally get why. It took me a very long time to be properly motivated and start to move ahead with a lot of things I wanted to do. I knew I was starting to head into the right direction and now with me getting this job it only confirms what I have been saying. I am not done though. I still have a list of things on the agenda. Getting a job was one of the main things and now I will continue to go through my list and get stuff accomplished. At this point the words fail or failure do not exist. I had a quote a few months back, a new way of living so to speak. Replace I can not do this with I will not fail. I keep the paper that I wrote that down on my computer desk in my room so I can see everytime I am at the computer.

Also written on that piece of paper is someone saying "Nick will never change". No Nick will not change specifically for people but Nick will change for himself and I have changed. I have changed on my terms and for myself not for anybody else and not because someone told me that I had to. To the specific person who said I was never going to change I want to say two things. Thank you. You saying I would never change was motivation enough to not only proof you wrong but maybe in a way to destroy any doubts that I may of had about my ability to change things around in my life. I know now for sure that I can change to better my own life. Secondly I just want to say...kiss my ass. I don't need to explain that one any further.

For a long time I was heading on a road to nowhere. Now I am on a different road. I am happy and I am excited about where it may head next. The journey will be the fun part. I know life is not perfect but I don't expect it to be perfect. I expect life to be as good as what you put into it. The more I put into it the better it has become.



I woke up this morning and decided for a change I would go outside and bring in the newspaper before anyone else had a chance. As I got outside I was greeted with an unpleasant surprise. Over a hundred feet away my neighbor was huddled over what appeared to be an old lady. It looked like he was eating her face. I was in absolute shock and I was in horror. Zombies? They aren't supposed to be real but here it was, a guy eating some poor old lady. What should I do? Call the police? Go get him off of her? Or just ignore it and lock myself in my house in hopes that he would never see me. I started to back up towards the door and that is when he lifted his head up and turned his head to look directly at me.

His face was a greyish color. It was covered with the old lady's blood. I went into panic mode and started trying to think how would I handle this zombie encounter. I've only dealt with them in video games such as Left 4 Dead. How can my Left 4 Dead training save me here? I had nothing around to grab to defend myself. Sure there is a bench on the porch but that would be too heavy to pick up. Suddenly the zombie screams out the word "FACE". He got up very slowly and started to move towards me while still saying the word "FACE". He was walking with a limp so maybe if I wanted to I would get away from him no problem. It was then in this moment of panic that the most brilliant idea ever came to me.

He seemed to be somewhat intelligent. Maybe I could talk him out of eating my face? So I said to him "hey dude maybe I can help you out. It seems like you are a hungry". As he is slowly itching closely he says the word "face" again. I said "dude seriously, my face is kinda pretty. You can't eat it. Let me help you find someone to eat. I will be your friend". He stops and he says the word "friend". I decide it might be safe to move towards him so I say "yes I will be your friend. I will help you eat someone's face". He points at me and says the word "friend" and I say "yes I will be your friend and I will help you eat someone's face". He then says the word "face" again. Apparently this plan is going to work but I need to find someone that he can eat and hopefully make it someone whom people won't miss all too well. I then remembered the Rebecca Black was going to be doing some lame concert in Milwaukee that night. No one would miss her if she was eaten by a zombie. I need to find her. I said to the guy "follow me. I will get you a face to eat". He responded by saying "face".

He followed me as we went on a search to find Rebecca Black. He was starting to get hungry or that is what it seemed like. He kept saying "face" and everytime he said it he would get more aggitated. As luck would have it we see Rebecca Black coming down the street. I turn to the zombie and I said "you see that girl over there. That is Rebecca Black. No one will care if you eat her face". He replied by saying the word "face". I said "before you go and attack her though let me start talking to her. I will get her to sing the song Friday. When you hear this part you can attack her." I began singing "It's Friday, Friday gotta get down on Friday". The zombie became very aggitated and screamed out "ARRRRRGGGGHHHH FACE".

We went up to Rebecca Black and I said "hi, I am a big fan of yours" and she replied with "hi, thanks. Um what is wrong with your friend?" He says the word "friend". I said "he is ok, just a bit under the weather". She was like "ok". I then said to her "hey I really like your song Friday, can you possibly sing the song really quick for us. Not the whole thing just the chorus part". She smiled and said "yeah sure anything for a fan". So she starts singing the words "Its Friday, Friday gotta get..." and before she can even finish the zombie screams "ARRRRRGGGGHHHH FACE". He jumps on her and starts gnawing at her face. She starts screaming in pain "help me!". All I can do is just stand there and watch. An evil smile comes across my face. Not only was I able to control this zombie but I got him to eat Rebecca Black. This could be the start of something amazing. Rebecca Black was now dead. The zombie had completely ripped her face to shreds.

When he was done he got up with blood dripping out of his mouth. I looked at him and said "good job" which he replied back with "friend get me face". He is learning more words! Good, I will totally work this to my advantage. So I decided to come up with a new plan. I said to him "alright dude new plan cause I am sure you will be hungry again". He replied by saying "face". I continued "ok so for example lets say I am talking to a chick, like the one you just killed, and I ask her a question and she tells me no it is ok to eat her. Like for example 'will you have sex with me?' when she tells me no eat her face". He says "face". I figured this was a brillant plan because it wouldn't be long until someone told me no.

So off we went to look for some chick who would tell me "no".

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